Sometimes I just be mad and stuff ...

If it was easy what would be the point. I guess what makes finally achieving or reaching goals is the fact that most often you work your butt off to get there. But sometimes … you can get so disenchanted. As a creative person, it’s hard to go on a streak where you’re not creating. Sometimes you just want to quit everything, become a nomad, and write beautiful music. But the truth is, we live on Earth with student loans and utilities to pay. So we grind. Many like me go to work during the day, hit the studio at night, network when they can, but if it doesn’t seem like often the momentum comes to a screeching halt at times! I mean, there are times when it seems like you are meeting all the right people, coming up with the best lyrics, and like your dreams aren’t quite as far as you might have thought. Yeah right! Then I hit a dry spell and get FED UP. Fed up with chasing after people, fed up with wishing that people saw in me what I see in myself, fed up with un-returned emails and people talking out their behinds about things they know they’ll never do. It’s like I lose sight of why I started on this path in the first place. But the thing is … I am a writer. I can’t escape it. Every time I write something, a story, letter, paragraph for work, I realize that I do really have a way with words. All I want to do is write crap and get paid for it. But it is really not the easiest thing to do. HA! But what can you do? I am at a point where I just want to regroup. You spend so much time trying to make sure that you have what it takes, that you’ll take anything or jump through any hoop someone puts out there for you. But I am done with that. I am headed toward making strategic plans to get where I want to be. And if you are not really interested in helping me with my vision, I’d just prefer you get out of my way! You don’t have to tell me things you don’t mean or pipe me up. I AM GOOD on that. I just want to impress those that are willing to put themselves out there because they believe in the product. That’s it. PATIENCE, PATIENCE, PATIENCE. But when time is running faster than a floozy out of church, it’s hard sometimes.