I was just thinking ... Sometimes we trip!

The devil is subtle ... It says that in the bible. But somehow we seem to miss when he is trying to sink his ways into our brain! The worst part about it is that sometimes he uses the people close to you in order to cast seeds of doubt and fear. Almost like clockwork there comes a time when I just feel like I'm not working hard enough. In this business sometimes you think that if you're not on yet, then you have to kill yourself until you're there!!! And someone brought it to omy attention that this feeling normally sinks in after I talk to a particular person. And the worst part about it is that I don't even realize that it's happening! So this year I am trying my best to focus on God's purpose and plan for my life. Forget everybody and everything else that makes me think I am not working hard enough. I bust my butt on the regular bases and everything that I am striving for I will get. I have a track record.

I was just thinking ... It's not too late

It’s only too late if you say it’s too late. A phrase that we hear very often but most of us don’t take heed. I have heard the pastor say this so many times, and I believe it with all my heart, but I find sometimes my actions don’t reflect that. When I hear that, I think of all the other people that think it’s too late for them to follow their dreams, or start a business, but I was overlooking how to apply it to my own life.


There are so many things that I wanted to do when I was younger. You couldn’t have told me that I wasn’t going to be a choreographer when I was young. But I was too afraid to audition for a school like Cappa and I didn’t really know what type of career I could have. So I moved on to a more sure thing … Music??? Lol. In any case I also wished that I played an instrument or that I had more vocal training when I was young. I even like to blame my parents sometimes, wishing that they would have helped me channel my interests more. But now that I am grown, what’s the excuse?

As much as I hear the words “It’s only too late if you say it’s too late,” why am I operating as it’s too late? Deep inside, I LOVE writing, but I also want to be able to sing. Number 1 I feel like it will help my writing a bit. Sometimes I have ideas that I am afraid to execute because I feel like I won’t be able to convey the idea correctly. Number 2, there are some songs I want to write, just for me. It’s so hard as a writer to always focus on what you want someone else to sing. You have to be relatable, you have to have ideas that a singer will want to sing about. But what about those personal experiences of your own that you just want to pour out? Artists have the freedom to be them, where I feel that many times as writers, though we are writing from our own perspective, there has to be a certain air to let that artists fly as well, if that makes any sense.

All this to say, darn it I am taking a vocal class!!! I always feel like, well I can carry a tune and if I just had a little direction I may be able to sing better. I can’t die knowing that there may have been a big voice inside of me that was never heard. So I am stepping out and seeing what happens. I will just have rest and peace of mind if I take the sessions and still suck. Hahahaha. At least I know I tried! I always feel like “Oh most people start singing when they are like 3!” I feel like how on Earth can I start honing this craft at 25? But God is real! And whatever is in his design, will happen for you, regardless of age, sex, what it looks like, what it feels like. And anyone who knows me knows that I sing ALL THE TIME! It may be a bit pitchy and all over the place, but I sing my little heart out.

I am excited to embark on a journey. I am still focused on writing great songs, but I will be interested to see what can happen if I work on my voice a bit. IT IS NOT TOO LATE! It’s NEVER TOO LATE! As long as we have breath, we can do things differently, we can try something new! It’s just one of those things. I’ll let you guys know how it goes! Starting in January.

Dope Writers - Linda Perry

I don't know about you, but I wouldn't have known the chicks from 4 Non-Blondes would go on to define the sign of two extremely influential artists in our time. I'm talking about Linda Perry. She has carved out such a sound for artists like Pink and Christina Aguilera, among others that is like no other.

Her lyrics are raw and honest. Those deep feelings that one may be afraid to say, but is relieved someone else said it for them.

The song "Beautiful" really struck a chord with me. That was before the video which really hit home for many people. The feeling of not being good enough, is one most can relate to!

Check out the record below, composed by the great Linda Perry.

#Random ... Refreshing Imagery

Say what you will about music videos and media, but one thing is certain, we as black women are not always shown flattering images of ourselves. From booty popping to long weaves and racial ambiguousness, you may end up wondering where the images of everyday Black women are. Someone brought this video to my attention, “Feeling More” by Tabi Bonney featuring Nicole Wray. It really made me smile to see all this beautiful black women with natural hair in this video!


Now I do not hate on women who choose something different, but often times when beauty is depicted on the TV screen, it is not of a woman with kinky curls. And it’s funny because when my hair was relaxed, I never even thought about it. I never thought about the fact that I rarely saw women on TV with their natural hair texture. Shoot, I didn’t even know what my natural hair texture was like.

Sometimes I feel like we are victim to things we don’t even realize. How will you ever know how beautiful you are if no one ever shows you? Or takes the time to spotlight that? Many young girls are suffering from an identity crisis. Many of our young girls are growing up with low self-esteem and they don’t even know it. I had no idea how attached I was to the idea that I had long hair. And I always wanted even my relaxed hair to be straighter, which made no sense at all.

I’m not saying everyone should go out and only use natural girls for their videos, but what a beautiful thing to show the many sides of beauty. Quite frankly, our girls need it. They need to know that they are gorgeous too, even with their frizz, and hair that won’t quite lie all the way down. There are so many men that appreciate it. Mine does! Lol.

I just want to scream “Hey little Black girl, you’re beautiful too!”

Check out the video below.

Dope Writers - Cee Lo Green

So, the first time that I heard this record I really fell in love. I mean plain and simple, I was floored. The arrangement and feel are sick on this song. Cee Lo really just did it with this song. Who would have thought that the little weird guy from Goodie Mob would make such classic music. I have developed such an appreciation for Cee Lo. That boy sangs which is so much more than you can say for many artists today. Don't let the feathers and the costumes fool you. There is some real artistry going on when Cee Lo steps into the lab. My interest was initially peaked with the Gnarles Barkley project and I've been hooked ever since. Always looking forward to his new music.

Check out Fool For You written by Jack Splash and Cee Lo Green. And Lady Killer is an awesome album. You should definitely check out the whole thing.

Music and Fashion

I am often floored by the amount of talented individuals I come across in my daily travels. Most recently, I received a dope denim vest from a young designer, Annastaisa Smith known to most as Sole Barbie whose collection is called Vintage Extinction. The line includes denim vest and jackets for men and women, crafted and altered by Smith herself. A retro look, you will most often see Smith rocking her collection with Js on her feet and a snapback covering her head. These vests are fun, fashionable and will get you a lot of “Where’d you get that from?” questions on the street. 

Make sure you check her out on her blog http://insidesolebarbie.blogspot.com and keep up with her on twitter @CallMe_SOLE. 

And take a look at me rocking my new vest below!   

I was just thinking ... co-writing

Some people really aren’t into co-writing. I personally find that it’s one of my favorite ways to write. I mean clearly it’s cool to be in your own head and come up with ideas. But I enjoy sessions where everyone is bouncing ideas off one another. But there also has to be a vibe there in order to make a session fruitful.

I’ve been in sessions where nothing really gets done because opinions can differ so much. So it’s all about finding co-writers that you really have chemistry with. And some people get funny thinking “oh well I will have to share the money when it comes.” I’d rather have the best possible song even if other people will get a share. 

Sometimes working alone you can end up repeating melodies or just sounding too similar to things you’ve already done. I even see co-writing as a challenge because it’s so easy just to impress myself. In co-writing everyone has to be on the same page ultimately and it’s great when I can write something that other writers appreciate.

But in co-writing, there are some things to remember. You have to know exactly what each person is bringing to the table. Nothing worse than the people who just hang around the studio with no particular significance to the sessions that want to put their two cents in. All of a sudden they think they are a writer. 

SPLIT SHEETS. As awkward as it can be when a person won’t start a session without one, it can be a good idea. Especially when going into sessions with people you don’t write with all the time. But this way everyone knows where they stand. You’ll have someone changing one line that they sang and then want to be listed on the credits as a writer … But that’s a whole other blog that I’ll probably never write to protect the innocent. Lol. But nonetheless, I love the music that I create on my own, but I have a great appreciate for many of the writing partners that I’ve found along the way.

One last thing is that as an up and coming songwriter, co-writes are great to have with more established writers. It’s a great way to get your name out there and then when you do get your own reputation you have a lot more under your belt.

Music that will last forever ...

In this time it is very hard to think past the next few seconds, minutes, let alone years and years to come. We live in a society and in a time where everything is right now. This I find is a monster when it comes to the music industry. A lot has changed in music, not all bad and not all good. But one element where I feel we suffer is making timeless music.

There are so many songs that I hear today, that I can’t even remember once they go off. Let alone remember them for years later. There are certain songs from growing up, that I know every single lyric to and even the adlibs. There was such a quality in the lyrics and in the melody. These songs related to our experiences and deep feelings.

Now I am CERTAINLY not a new music basher. There are so many new artists and songs that I like. But I still think that as a whole music is suffering. I can’t tell you how sick I am of the super sexually explicit R&B songs. It’s like enough is enough. There has to be a more creative way of saying these things. I do believe it’s affecting some of the way young generations view themselves and relationships.

Not to stand on that soap box forever, but I did come across this record by Bonnie Raitt and funny enough, years later here is Tank as well covering it. A little white lady (kick butt guitar player and all but you know what I am saying) from back in the day to one of the influential writers of our time, and the song still makes sense. I am not sure that years later people will cover “Invented Sex” or “Deuces”. No disrespect to Chris Brown or Trey Songz, I’m just saying.

Check out the two versions below: "I Can't Make You Love Me" Composers: Mike Reid and James Allen II Shamblin
Bonnie Riatt


Tank

Dope Writer - Priscilla Renea

Rihanna's career has exploded. I mean I never thought the Pon da Replay girl would have this type of career. But with the right people behind her, she has really become one of the biggest players in the industry. I'd like to think that is in part to the great producers and songwriters she has behind her as well. That includes Priscilla Renea. A talented artist in her own right, she helped co-write "California King Bed" which is a song that really grew on me! She also has a cut on the new album Talk That Talk called Watch N Learn, which I haven't heard yet, but everyone has been talking about it. In any case, check out California King Bed in the meantime!

Dope Writers - Kevin McCall

This record really killed it for me. It's a little heavily sexy which I rage against often. LOL. It's just in general I feel like it's over done at this point in music, but this one was executed well enough for me to disregard my disdain for super sexed music. Haha. Nonetheless, Kevin McCall is the man that many are citing as one of the reasons that Chris Brown is having such a great resurgence. Check him out as one of the composers on No BS.

Dope Writer - Carole King

You are talking about one of the POP songwriting queens of the world here. Carole King was such a beast when it came to writing catchy tunes that had you tapping your feet. I remember this song being in so many films and it has lived well beyond the era in which it was created. Which is what most of us songwriters really need. Who cares if your song is #1 on the billboard chart for a couple of weeks. I want to write records that live beyond time frame. Carole King, a classic songwriter. Check her out!

Just an unoriginal thought ...

There are no new ideas there are only new ways of making them felt. I think that’s what Audre Lorde said. As disheartening as it may seem it can be true in a certain way. I mean especially as a writer. We want to feel like we came up with the cleverest way to say something. But really, what hasn’t been said in a song? How many different ways do you think you can fall in love, be heartbroken, and be torn between decisions. I hate to be the one to break it to you but someone has probably said it before you. But the wonderful truth in that, I heard someone say, is that there are generations experiencing those same feelings for the first time. That is what keeps us relevant. We get to tell these stories for the first time to that boy who just started to like that girl in their class or that girl that feels like she isn’t enough. So that idea makes me think everything doesn’t have to be so clever all the time. It annoys me when the emotion gets lost in a song because the writer is trying so hard to say something in a different way. Now I am not saying that we shouldn’t try to be innovative with our lyrics and words, but I am saying, don’t lose that raw emotion. Don’t lose that way of connecting with an audience in the same way you felt the heartbreak in songs like “If you think you’re lonely now” or “On Bended Knee.” Those songs for me didn’t have to have extra analogies or rap punch lines they just laid it all out, their feelings and I was able to identify with it. I want to write records that people break down crying to like I used to! I don’t always want to think so hard about how I am supposed to feel about the record! Guess that’s the end of my soapbox. Haha.

No Matter How Nice your Boots are ...

No matter how nice your boots are, you can always step in dog poop. I know that sounds so strange but the funniest thing happened to me today. Recently I bought a couple pairs of new boots for the winter season. All my old boots had literally began to fall apart, so I figured it was time to grab some new ones. I was even beginning to feel subpar because my boots were beginning to look so worn. So I felt really good about putting on my new boots to head to church. As I’m walking toward the church, stomping in my new boots, all of a sudden I felt my boot slide and I had to catch myself. And then I got a whiff of the sweet aroma of dog poop. As I began to put two and two together I realized exactly what I slid on. Hahaha. I looked at the bottom of my shoe and for sure there was poop on the bottom of them. It’s just so funny how, you can think that you are moving on up in the world and that you finally have something that makes you feel good and step in dog poop! Not having the latest boots … definitely First World problems as my co-worker and friend Caitlin Vivian would say. A Christian Laboutin can be just as easily smeared in poop as a payless shoe.

If I didn't already know who I was ...

Know who you are. Because the world will constantly try to define that for you. Without a strong sense of self, you can easily be destroyed. Constantly comparing yourself to others, wishing and hoping that something was different about you. But understand what God says about you … that you are beautifully and wonderfully made, crafted in his image. Every single one of us. No matter how much weight you want to lose, or how thick your glasses prescription may be. We are perfectly imperfect. I have found myself at so many points, sizing myself up next to other people, based on what they have, how they look, blah blah blah. At a certain point you have to just get tired of it. The funniest thing is when I’ve wanted something someone else had and they expressed to me that they wanted something I had. That’s how you KNOW you’re being ridiculous. Lol. But seriously, it’s a great thing to grow into a confident woman. But it takes time! I am still a work in progress, but the key is being around other confident women of God that can show you the ropes. I’m never afraid to give props where it’s due, but sometimes I don’t give myself the same props I give others. I’m pretty awesome myself. Lol. What one woman has doesn’t take anything away from what you have. That’s something that so many of us have to learn. We can all be beautiful, successful, and talented. And passing that confidence along to the next generation, is one of the greatest gifts we have to give.

#Random - Joan Jett and the Foo Fighters on Letterman

So ... I knew the music but I didn't know a lot about Joan Jett until I saw the movie The Runaways! What an awesome, twisted story. And then I realize who the woman was behind these timeless songs. So apparently Joanie jumped on stage with the Foo Fighters at their show at MSG. SO ... Here they are performing last night on Letterman. Is her voice awesome or what? Pure Rock & Roll Chick!

I was just thinking ... co-writing

Some people really aren’t into co-writing. I personally find that it’s one of my favorite ways to write. I mean clearly it’s cool to be in your own head and come up with ideas. But I enjoy sessions where everyone is bouncing ideas off one another. But there also has to be a vibe there in order to make a session fruitful. 

I’ve been in sessions where nothing really gets done because opinions can differ so much. So it’s all about finding co-writers that you really have chemistry with. And some people get funny thinking “oh well I will have to share the money when it comes.” I’d rather have the best possible song even if other people will get a share. 

Sometimes working alone you can end up repeating melodies or just sounding too similar to things you’ve already done. I even see co-writing as a challenge because it’s so easy just to impress myself. In co-writing everyone has to be on the same page ultimately and it’s great when I can write something that other writers appreciate.

But in co-writing, there are some things to remember. You have to know exactly what each person is bringing to the table. Nothing worse than the people who just hang around the studio with no particular significance to the sessions that want to put their two cents in. All of a sudden they think they are a writer. 

SPLIT SHEETS. As awkward as it can be when a person won’t start a session without one, it can be a good idea. Especially when going into sessions with people you don’t write with all the time. But this way everyone knows where they stand. You’ll have someone changing one line that they sang and then want to be listed on the credits as a writer … But that’s a whole other blog that I’ll probably never write to protect the innocent. Lol. But nonetheless, I love the music that I create on my own, but I have a great appreciate for many of the writing partners that I’ve found along the way.

One last thing is that as an up and coming songwriter, co-writes are great to have with more established writers. It’s a great way to get your name out there and then when you do get your own reputation you have a lot more under your belt.

Dope Writers - Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis

This is one of my favorite songs ever from New Edition. Sorry folks I was too young to really appreciate the "Candy Girl" days. But when I heard this song I definitely fell head over heels. I still sing my heart out to this on the regular bases. Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis are some of the most talented songwriters of our time! You probably don't even know how many of your favorite songs are written by them. DO YOUR RESEARCH! Haha. "Again" by Janet is one of my favorite records of all time as well! I didn't even know they wrote it. Check it out!

Living Distracted ...

Are we ever really focused on one thing? Do you ever feel like you have a person’s full attention? I’m not sure there is such a thing anymore. We are constantly battling in our minds. What’s the next thing I’m going to say, what I have to do when I get home … etc, etc? The mind can be a prison, clouding your freedom to enjoy the day, or a conversation, notice the little things. And when did it become acceptable to stop conversation to tweet, to text or answer the phone? What happened to the idea of I’ll get to it later? It’s disappeared along with the common courtesy of “undivided attention.” We live in a world with such a sense of urgency. Everything is RIGHT NOW, but we simply can’t do everything at once. No matter how hard we try. We are suffering socially. We are missing the very crux of what made social media popular in the first place. And I say this not as a condemner but guilty as charged. But I want to be better. I can’t continue to live a life unfocused, not concentrating on the activity at hand. It’s a dangerous place and it’s proven every time someone dies at the wheel of someone distracted by a text message or an email while driving. We must learn how to refocus and live each moment as it comes and not simultaneous to everything else in our lives.

I was just thinking ... Choices

Life is all about choices. Even choosing not to choose. “Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate …” Most of us know the rest of Mandela’s speech but I would add to that “we are afraid that more of our fate is in our hands than we think.” God gives us direction, he gives us a path … But the choices we make help dictate the bumps and smooth plains along the way. If you want something different in your life, pray for direction and don’t veer off course. Stick with the process and make wise decisions. You are even making a choice when seeking His council. You must move or nothing is going to change. Most of us don’t want to own up to the things that we can do differently, that INCLUDES ME! I know that I need to make different decisions and I am working on getting there. No more standing still.

Just a Thought

I Lost My Soul Today ... I lost my soul today Thought I had it Then I realized I left it on the train Not sure where it’s headed I just know that it’s gone I’m just left with no sense of where I belong But I’m still trying to head home Trying to find a way But empty on the inside Nothing keeping me grounded I’m light Doing everything to stop myself from taking off in flight See my soul was heavy, solid Kept me all together Wish I knew where that train was headed.

#Random - Halle and Chloe killing I Was Here by Beyonce

So perusing youtube, came across these two young ladies. I was just reading an article on Diane Warren in Billboard too! She strikes again. Check out the tune she wrote for Beyonce sung by these two beautiful young women. They are so adorable. lol

Untapped Resources

I know a lot of people … in various fields and various points in their career in this business. But I have a hard time tapping into that at different points. No one wants to be used. But the reality is, this industry is very much about relationships and I have a hard time asking people to help. I try my hardest to support all the things that people have going on, but when it comes to self promotion, I suck! It is just awkward trying to sell yourself, but you have to! If you can’t talk yourself up, sell your brand, no one else is going to do it for you. I have been pushing myself lately to focus on my endeavors. No one else has an issue sending me texts or messages asking me to support their stuff …. But it can be funny how when you are looking for people to help you don’t hear anything from them. So I end up in this weird predicament of wanting to reach out to peers for help but knowing that it will slightly change the nature of the relationship if they don’t come through. So I end up trying to do it all on my own. It’s difficult to balance the whole thing. Support and co-signs from others are very coveted, but I also try to hold on to the pioneers that had to persevere even when no one else could see their vision. The greatest partner in this entire world is God. With him all things are possible … so I am learning to relinquish my thoughts of wanting others to help me get where I need to go. Knowing that God works through people there are some people that will be there … and those that won’t can pretty much kick rocks. Haha. That’s harsh, but you know what I mean. Gotta appreciate those that do believe in you and the rest will catch on eventually with everyone else.

#Random- Common Blue Sky

I my friends am a fair weather hip-hop fan! I'll admit it. hahaha. I most commonly find myself liking similar types of rap. All that being said, what a great song from Common! Sometimes you hear music that sounds like a soundtrack to your life, and every superhero needs theme music right? Check it out!

Just A Thought

What I mean to say was ... See thoughts always seem to come out wrong or on too strong And here I am left begging to be heard Pleading to be understood But nothing seems to come out right It’s confused, misinterpreted, offensive hurtful But not at all what I meant Our minds are so loud We can’t hear because we’re so turned up about everything Things going on in our lives, our insecurities and flaws that we can’t hear the words spoken We can’t take words for what they are without ulterior motives Why I can’t I just mean what I say without nuances of underlying ideas, thoughts or sarcasm. Why don’t you hear me when I’m speaking? Feel the desperation in my breaths Why aren’t you comforted by the gentleness in my eyes? Why can’t you talk to me without any threat of being attacked? That’s not what I meant at all And now I’m swallowing vowel sounds And choking on consonants Completely uncertain on appropriate verbiage and dying in silence Afraid to misspeak, to be misrepresented by my own words How can we talk?

Dope Writers - Frank Ocean

It has taken me a while to get on this boat ... one because he is just a bit strange, let's just get that out there in the open. But I realize I like Novacane a lot. I think it's a great song. I really like the vibe. I also was browsing through the Beyonce 4 credits and I saw that he was a co-writer on I Miss You. This record is really low key and easy going but it is something I really like about it. The simplicity. I'm not sure how involved he was in vocal production but I like the way she sings this record. The melody is slightly off beat at certain points which I enjoy.

Check it out!

Dope Writers - Diane Warren

This is one of my favorite songs ever ... I just remember being young and not being all that familiar with Aerosmith. But when I heard this song .... wow, it just really hit me. And I know this was a stretch from the normal music that they do. But this really made me pay attention to them. It wasn't until a while later that I saw Diane Warren on Oprah and learned that she was the songwriter behind such timeless hits. Please check it out and enjoy!

Prepare for What You Ask For

If you’re anything like me, you spend a lot of time asking for things to happen in your life. For me it’s in prayers, constantly asking for many things but especially advancement in my career. But I realize that especially in those moments when I am at my wit’s end, God really decides to make moves in my life. And as much as I ask for things, in the moments when something I asked for is right in front of my face, I have a moment of apprehension, which makes absolutely no sense.

Most recently, I have just really been meditating on getting my blog together and having more opportunities for my songwriting. I have received some of the most random text messages and emails in regard to writing that it creeped me out! And my pastor recently spoke about unrecognized resources. These opportunities have been coming from people that aren’t even necessarily in music.

It’s amazing when you find yourself actually receiving the answers you are looking for. But I am realizing you have to be prepared for the things that you are asking for. You have to be ready. Often we approach our prayers without the faith and trust that they will actually be answered. So we don’t even know how to receive the great things that are happening to us because of what we prayed for.

I’ve decided to face these opportunities head on. No matter how afraid I am, I know that these are the things that I have hoped for. I have to tap into the confidence that God clearly intended me to have. He clearly only threw me the bone because he felt that I was ready. Why do we second guess ourselves so often? Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen … Sometimes our faith brings forth things we never thought we’d see.

Dope Writers - Andre 3000

So .... I was talking to someone today about Dope Writers and they mentioned Andre 3000 and I had to agree. The Love Below was CLASSIC. I mean outside of the fact that he is just a dope lyricist. This is one of my favorite songs probably ever. Just so vibed out. And one night I had the pleasure of hearing a cover by one of the Aaries sisters. (You know they're twins, I can't remember which one it was. lol.) But she murdered it! So anyway ... Check it out!
Prototype_ Outkast the love below by lasc35

A night out ...

The music you believe in. You have to support it. If you don’t you can’t be mad that no one else will. It’s as simple as the saying, “be the change you want to see.” You won’t see good music be successful if you aren’t supporting it. You can’t wonder why artists are being dropped and download their CD illegally. It doesn’t work like that. Get out to a live show, buy a CD, do something to support. I have been so fortunate over the last year or so to really meet some extraordinary artists. Many signed to labels but still in the daily grind of making their name and space in this industry. Tonight I got to get out to see Nikki Jean’s show at World Café Live. She’s a great artist. The music feels really honest. She’s quirky and has fun on stage. And she put together a project with amazing writers! From Carole King to Bob Dylan to Thom Bell, the project has something for everybody. I really felt inspired to write after hearing a few of the songs from the project. There really aren’t too many artists that I consider myself a fan of, but I really see something special there. Maybe because she writes the songs that I want to. I sometimes feel like the songs I like to write the most are probably the ones I would have to sing myself. But I’m not a singer, so I’m working on it. As much as I love to see vocalists bring the songs I write to life, I know that there will be a point where I want to just go for broke on songs about the moon and stars that no one else will want to sing. Ha! And I’m fine with that. I look forward to strengthening my chops on guitar and letting it rip. In the meantime, you should definitely check out Pennies in a Jar. My fingers are crossed that it has a break out year, Esperanza style. We need this in music, I think anyway. Looking forward to indulging in the album I purchased. Support the music you love.

#Random - Q Covers 1+1

So I am not sure why this happens but for the most part, I don't like certain songs until I hear them from another artist. Sometimes the artist just doesn't connect even though the song is really good. Well, I like Beyonce's version of 1+1 of course, but I was floored when I heard Q do his rendition. Something about the clarity of his voice is amazing! Also, I remember thinking that 112 was one of the most talented groups ever! I mean all of them could sing really well and with different tones, which seems to be missing from music today! Everyone sounds the same. Anyway, enjoy Q singing a cover of 1+1. Those runs .... Just make me angry. lol.

I was just thinking ...

I realize that I can’t make everyone want more. It’s been a hard realization to come to, but definitely something I need to get over. I have this thought in my head that most people have sooooo much more potential than the world will ever see. But somehow people become so content with their lives. Never even thinking of the possibilities of how to do something so much greater in their lives than work and come home every day and do it all over again until they die! I guess there is this weird space needed for people like that. But I think to myself, what a great world we would live in if everyone tried to live up to their fullest potential … but I am sure there would be some other problems. Granted there can’t be all leaders in this world, but I even mean being the best follower you can be sometimes. Lol. But really, I just feel as though I am constantly around amazing people that don’t even know their WORTH. And it drives me nuts. I know that most of them are sick of me always trying to push them … but I appreciate a good push! It’s hard at times and you want to fuss people out, but you have to realize when a friend or close colleague is simply trying to make you better. I HATE SINGING …. But I know that it is something I have to get over. And even though I want to kill the producers that try to bring it out of me, I know that they’re right! So hopefully my friends and family don’t disown me for trying to get the good stuff out of them. For me … I feel like, we live and then we die. Why wouldn’t I want to strive for the things in life that will really satisfy me? And if God actually allows me a taste of the things that I dream … well then my life will completely be worth it. I believe that we need to consistently be striving towards better things and not just monetary and worldly things. I mean being a better person, a better friend … EVERYTHING. It really boggles my mind that people don’t want to improve their way of thinking, who they are as a person, or where they are in life … I just DON’T understand the mentality. And that’s what I have to come to grips with. I don’t understand it and I probably never will. My talent and purpose means everything to me. So I refuse not to live every day trying to reach my maximum potential. I won’t stop until the things that I write fuel my life, fund my expenses, and change the way people think or see things. I hope that eventually my walk can encourage others. God gave me this spirit and I am thankful.

Dope Writers - Solange

Sooooo many people hated on Solange doing music. No disrespect but I found myself a true fan of Solange's Hadley Street Dreams and I haven't bought a Beyonce album ever. I like her, I can just catch her on the radio. But I was blasting Solange on the regular bases. And she is a very talented writer! I think that she is very creative and RAW! Sometimes as a writer there are things I am afraid to say because of how they may be perceived. But I realize that is definitely an obstacle to overcome quickly. The music has to be honest and that is a very vulnerable place to be. Well ... Solange goes there! There are so many records that I love. But here is one that she co-wrote for her sister. "Why Don't You Love Me." Check it Out!

Dope Writers - Adam Levine

So besides being the only white boy I would take home to my mother, Adam Levine is one of my favorite songwriters of all time. The pure emotion and imagery in his lyrics, I can't help but feel it even if it's something I never went through before. This particular song ... I sing my heart out to consistently. I mean "Every time I wind up back at your door?" Who hasn't been there before? I love the arrangement. Written with bandmate Jesse Carmichael, this is one of my favorite Maroon 5 songs of all time. I mean "Moves Like Jagger" is cool and everything, but I love when Maroon is in this bag. Check it out!

Write Laugh Dream Photo Shoot

So I finally took the pictures to begin revamping the site! I am so excited. Sometimes we get so caught up in other projects and helping other people with their dreams that we forget about our own. I am so happy that lately I am back on the horse with focusing on the things that I need to get done. I hope to have at least 100 followers for the blog within the next month or so (so I need you guys help with that! Tell a friend to tell a friend) and I have really been working at getting things together. On Saturday, October 8, I had the pleasure of shooting with Ja’Reef Quayan who is a very dope photographer and Karim Rashad a great visual artist and brand manager. I was extremely nervous! As outgoing as I am, I am not used to being the center of attention in front of a camera. I have a newfound respect for models!!!! It is extremely hard work. Silly me, I thought the shoot wouldn’t take more than 2-3 hours. I don’t know where I could have possibly gotten that idea from. We ended up shooting from about 2pm – 8:30pm, which isn’t the longest amount of time, I know, but longer than I expected. There are so many intricacies that go into getting the right shots. How does your body look “bored,” lol. I learned new angles and ways to make my body look excited I guess. Haha. And for me standing for hours in high heels didn’t help! I was floored at the great job my friend Amanda Brown did on my make-up. I had never had someone who was a professional make-up artist do my face for me. I recommend every woman get made up at some point in her life and take pictures. Also make sure you check out Amanda’s facebook page and tutorials. Make-Up By Amanda Brown. Special thanks to my friend Shauntae, Dilemma, and Sigma Sound for helping me out as well. It really takes a lot out of you to shoot for a day. I was extremely exhausted by the time we were done and I still had two events to go to. It really made me understand how sometimes when you meet celebrities it seems like they have a whack personality. But honestly, I got it! I had absolutely nothing left by the time I got to the other two events. I can’t imagine if that was what my everyday was like. But in any case, seeing just the rough photos made it all worth it. Here are just a few silly shots from the shoot. Make sure you look out for the finished product in the next couple of weeks.

I was just thinking ...

I love Sundays. It really seems like the best day to take it easy. I mean God rested on the 7th day. Lol. But really, I like to enjoy church in the AM and then I am looking forward to BRUNCH in the afternoon. It is normally the best time to just reflect. A lot of times great conversation about the sermon ensues. It must be a ritual for many because a lot of brunch spots have the WORST wait times on Sunday. I’ve had so many great times chatting over waffles and omelets. Some of my favorite places to go are Green Eggs and Sabrina’s. If you haven’t already, you should definitely check them out some time.

Dope Writers - Claude Kelly

So I am a little late on this train, but I have been hearing so much about Claude Kelly lately. I was talking to one of my mentors, Ivan Barias and he said "Do you know who Claude Kelly is?" As I stared blankly he said "You wanna write songs, you need to know who Claude Kelly is," So after a quick google search, I was up to date. This is probably the only Miley Cyrus song I will ever hear in my life, but I love it. Such a feel good song, you can't help but jam to this. Check it out!

Chill Moody and Dilemma

So one of my fav producers to work with ... Dilemma teamed up with Chill Moody to create Stage 1 in The Gam3 Plan, which will be released October 10. Make sure you look out for that. I've heard a sneak peak and the songs are ridiculous! I'm glad I've had the chance to meet Chill Moody. I've heard his name all around Philly and now that we've run into each other on numerous occassions I really think he's a dope person and a hard worker. So SUPPORT his music! He also has a song on the Puzzle Pieces album with Khemist "Change Today." If you don't already have it, pick it up and be on the look out for new music! Two of the best and brightest from Philly! And check out www.mrhelloworld.com www.chillmoody.com

Money Can't Be Everything ...

See money can’t possibly be everything. Steve Jobs had no short of cash. But in the end it couldn’t save his life. It couldn’t change the cards that he had been dealt. He was a fighter and indeed fought for his life. But the money couldn’t save him. That’s what people mean when they say “money isn’t everything.” Yes many of us are in pursuit of riches and glory, but really all we have is our life and that doesn’t last forever. What will your legacy be? What will people say about you? How have you changed anything? Steve Job’s vision and forward thinking … that’s what made him rich before anyone ever heard of a company called Apple. You have to be prosperous in your mind before any prosper will come to your pockets. Anyone who has achieved insurmountable success already knew in their minds that their life would be different, that something they did would change the way that people think, act, view the world. If you can’t be happy with sporadic, unplanned dates, or the times when you didn’t know how you would make a bill or the journey to success, I am doubtful that any amount of monetary success will make you a happy person. I truly believe that money only magnifies who you are already. Prepare to look as good today, as you will in your blown up future. If not those same flaws will be there. Think about not only how you can change your life but how you can affect change in others. Money won’t save you … So what will validate your moments on Earth when you are gone? Steve Jobs 1955-2011… well done!

New Music - Jade Alston

So ... Funny how you randomly reconnect with people later in life. Jade and I went to like middle school together and we both turned out to be working in the same industry. Always proud and excited when people are doing their thing ... so Check out her new single "Missing You Lately"

Worth a Thousand Words

No truer words ... pic says a lot about my life.

I was just thinking ...

Marriage 25 and it seems like all my friends are married or getting married. And I can’t even lie … I am feeling some type of way! I have never been the type to dream about the white dress and big wedding and I am still NOT! Haha. The marriage has always been more important to me than the wedding. I am looking forward to sharing that with someone. I think it is really an honor to be able to call someone your husband and not just your boyfriend and vice versa. I look forward to being called wife. You can never rush these types of things and I don’t plan to but I can’t say that I don’t feel the pressure sometimes. I’m still young and yadda yadda but when you really think about it the gift of marriage and what it means in the eyes of God, it’s kind of cool. I have to admit. I am not a gushy girl for the most part at all … but there is something about that moment when people decide make that step, that makes my heart melt. The rings don’t hurt either. (Yes we all like shiny things.) haha. But really, marriage is such a treasure that God created. To know that your spouse is a special gift to help you along in this world is pretty awesome. I know how much it meant to me to have parents that were married … and not that they were PERFECT, but I felt secure because of it. I hope to give my children that same feeling. I feel like there was a point in my life where I wasn’t really sure what I wanted. But it is nice to come to grips with the fact that I know I want to experience being married and having children before I leave this Earth. I pray it’s in God’s plan for me. I never want to get so caught up in chasing my dream that that part of my life has to fall by the wayside. I really want it all and I don’t plan to stop until I have it.

Dope Writers - John Mayer

This record gives me everything. I had the pleasure of choreographing my own modern dance to this as well in one of my dance classes eons ago. I mean the guitar chords are pretty simple, but what he does with it is just great. I love John Mayer as a guitar player. He gives me the motivation to keep trying to play. I mean who hasn't felt like gravity was working against them before??? It's the only thing keeping me from flying. Check it out!

Dope Writers - Amos Lee

So one day I was at my internship at Propulsion Media Labs and I heard this music billowing out of the office next to the intern desk. It takes really good music for me to go ask someone what it is. I'd like to say Thank You Jon Yucis for introducing me to Amos Lee. One of the first songs I learned on guitar ... his lyrics and story telling are so compelling for me. I promise I was a guitar slinging singer/songwriter in another life.

Check it out!

Broke* Screening at F/M Festival

At the Philadelphia Film and Music Festival, I was invited to check out a screening of a film called Broke*. The screening was at Invincible Films, which was a very interesting space. The film was created by singer/songwriter Will Gray and was all about what it takes to “break” as an artist in today’s music industry. Broke* was a very compelling tale of the ups and downs of working as an independent artist. The film explored the current record label models and how they are failing. A great film for others in the industry, we got to see such a human side to those simply trying to sustain through their craft. We often think about the music megastars, but what about those who just want to create music as a career? Gray let us into the debt he racked up by going out on tour. He showed us the torment he faced, that he couldn’t pay his musicians what they were actually worth, but they were so honored just to play with him so they played anyway. Even throughout the filming of the documentary, his good friend and band mate found herself in the midst of a divorce. It was one of the most compelling parts of the film. Gray’s music was very honest, an interesting mix of hip-hop, soul, blues, and grassroots music I was very intrigued. I also appreciated the fact that Gray took the time to feature music from many of the other artists that gave interviews in the film. So many talented people that have had their share of label meetings, deals, and for one reason or another have ended up doing it themselves. The fact of the matter for me is, although there is a lot that labels can provide mainly DOLLARS … the industry is in a good place where artists are regaining control over their art. If you already have to have a fan base in place, selling your own CDs, doing shows in order to remotely have a label pay attention to you, then you have a lot more bargaining power when you come to the table. I was excited to hear that Gray recently locked in a publishing deal with Warner and for the last 4 months has been in various writing camps. He even had a meeting with Roc Nation close to the time that the film was screening here in Philly. THERE IS HOPE! As a writer, that is of course one of the things that I hope I am working towards. But I have taken note from many independent artists, writers have to market themselves as well, secure placements, etc. on their own before anyone will pay attention. I’m working on it. To check out more information on the Broke* Documentary, check out www.brokedoc.com.

Dope Writers - Bob Dylan

This is one of my favorite records. Although I was introduced to it by Adele, I absolutely salute Bob Dylan as one of the greatest songwriters of this time. I am a sucker for love songs. Sometimes it is the simplest lyrics that really make a song. I promise in my heart I am a folk, singer/songwriter. Maybe once my catelog is boss, I'll put out a folk record. lol.

Sometimes I just be mad and stuff ...

If it was easy what would be the point. I guess what makes finally achieving or reaching goals is the fact that most often you work your butt off to get there. But sometimes … you can get so disenchanted. As a creative person, it’s hard to go on a streak where you’re not creating. Sometimes you just want to quit everything, become a nomad, and write beautiful music. But the truth is, we live on Earth with student loans and utilities to pay. So we grind. Many like me go to work during the day, hit the studio at night, network when they can, but if it doesn’t seem like often the momentum comes to a screeching halt at times! I mean, there are times when it seems like you are meeting all the right people, coming up with the best lyrics, and like your dreams aren’t quite as far as you might have thought. Yeah right! Then I hit a dry spell and get FED UP. Fed up with chasing after people, fed up with wishing that people saw in me what I see in myself, fed up with un-returned emails and people talking out their behinds about things they know they’ll never do. It’s like I lose sight of why I started on this path in the first place. But the thing is … I am a writer. I can’t escape it. Every time I write something, a story, letter, paragraph for work, I realize that I do really have a way with words. All I want to do is write crap and get paid for it. But it is really not the easiest thing to do. HA! But what can you do? I am at a point where I just want to regroup. You spend so much time trying to make sure that you have what it takes, that you’ll take anything or jump through any hoop someone puts out there for you. But I am done with that. I am headed toward making strategic plans to get where I want to be. And if you are not really interested in helping me with my vision, I’d just prefer you get out of my way! You don’t have to tell me things you don’t mean or pipe me up. I AM GOOD on that. I just want to impress those that are willing to put themselves out there because they believe in the product. That’s it. PATIENCE, PATIENCE, PATIENCE. But when time is running faster than a floozy out of church, it’s hard sometimes.

The Team

I don't know that I ever knew the magnitude of what it feels like to have a whole team of people behind you that believe in you and your gift. I get it now! It is such a gift to have individuals that only want to see you succeed. And NO WE DO NOT ALWAYS AGREE! Let me emphasize that. lol. But in the end, we really pulled something off here! I hope that the whole world shares our sentiment. Khemist is one of the most talented MCs I've experienced! No matter what, our journey over this summer has been amazing. You couldn't tell us we weren't on a world tour!But we set a goal and we reached it! This Puzzle Pieces summer has been an adventure, we are constantly learning and growing. Cheers to a great album release event. And if you haven't picked up the album already, please visit http://khemist.bandcamp.com or holla at me ... you can preview below:

Our Stories ... #1

“He was rapping all the words to the song…” He said it in a tone slightly higher than I’m used to. Eyes glazed over based on the fact that he just laid his heart out on the stage at SOBs in New York City. A milestone in a young career, imagine, stepping onto the stage where many of your influences and icons stepped before you. It must be something surreal. Are you then channeling the echoes of their voices? I would think so. It’s amazing to see your dreams play out, in real life. What was my response to him? “Get used to it kid.” I mean whether he believes it or not, he’s a star, born to do it, as some would say. To be a part of these moments … is a blessing. As I patiently await those moments in my journey … the moment, I hear my music on the radio or being performed at stadium status, I am so full of joy to watch someone else achieve their own. We were there, we did it, we rocked a New York Crowd, had them vibing to the music, singing the words to the songs. Goes to show that no matter what they say about you, you can make things happen. Make your dreams come to fruition. Enjoy these moments, I’m wondering what the response will be when the world knows the words …