Just A Thought

What I mean to say was ... See thoughts always seem to come out wrong or on too strong And here I am left begging to be heard Pleading to be understood But nothing seems to come out right It’s confused, misinterpreted, offensive hurtful But not at all what I meant Our minds are so loud We can’t hear because we’re so turned up about everything Things going on in our lives, our insecurities and flaws that we can’t hear the words spoken We can’t take words for what they are without ulterior motives Why I can’t I just mean what I say without nuances of underlying ideas, thoughts or sarcasm. Why don’t you hear me when I’m speaking? Feel the desperation in my breaths Why aren’t you comforted by the gentleness in my eyes? Why can’t you talk to me without any threat of being attacked? That’s not what I meant at all And now I’m swallowing vowel sounds And choking on consonants Completely uncertain on appropriate verbiage and dying in silence Afraid to misspeak, to be misrepresented by my own words How can we talk?