I was just thinking ...

Marriage 25 and it seems like all my friends are married or getting married. And I can’t even lie … I am feeling some type of way! I have never been the type to dream about the white dress and big wedding and I am still NOT! Haha. The marriage has always been more important to me than the wedding. I am looking forward to sharing that with someone. I think it is really an honor to be able to call someone your husband and not just your boyfriend and vice versa. I look forward to being called wife. You can never rush these types of things and I don’t plan to but I can’t say that I don’t feel the pressure sometimes. I’m still young and yadda yadda but when you really think about it the gift of marriage and what it means in the eyes of God, it’s kind of cool. I have to admit. I am not a gushy girl for the most part at all … but there is something about that moment when people decide make that step, that makes my heart melt. The rings don’t hurt either. (Yes we all like shiny things.) haha. But really, marriage is such a treasure that God created. To know that your spouse is a special gift to help you along in this world is pretty awesome. I know how much it meant to me to have parents that were married … and not that they were PERFECT, but I felt secure because of it. I hope to give my children that same feeling. I feel like there was a point in my life where I wasn’t really sure what I wanted. But it is nice to come to grips with the fact that I know I want to experience being married and having children before I leave this Earth. I pray it’s in God’s plan for me. I never want to get so caught up in chasing my dream that that part of my life has to fall by the wayside. I really want it all and I don’t plan to stop until I have it.